Katchihe

Well hello there fellow deviant-artists, how has everyone been today?

I know I've fallen off the face of the Earth for the billionth time and honestly I've hit that part of the road where I go "What's the point?". 
Now before anyone jumps the gun and/or the world is set on fire, no, I'm not leaving dA nor am I selling/killing off my characters EVER.

But the roadblock called "What's the point?" is honestly just what's the point of even doing anything here anymore? Also to clarify once again, I'M NOT LEAVING DEVIANTART  

See here's the thing. I love sharing my art and inspiring other people while also being inspired myself. Through the years deviantART has slowly become nothing but dry land where small groups of people stick together and don't expand their horizons to find new people and stuff. Yes I get it, friends are friends, but honestly there gets that time where you just fall off from each other not that I suffer from it since I've mostly been naught but a lone wolf my entire art career. 

And here's the other thing. With my motivation to inspire others with my art comes Instagram. In my ENTIRE artistic life I've never thought about having so many wonderful supporters that DO motivate me each day to create new art. Heck my artwork about Midoriya with the girls? This one?


Never in my damn life would I have thought it would get over 3k likes. THAT IS INSANE!! And also throwing this one out there because reasons 



I worked bloody HARD on this piece of art just for it to be used as toilet paper here on DeviantArt, and no those who did like it and took a couple of minutes out of their day to comment are VIPs, but the bottom line is, here I don't feel like my efforts are appreciated. 

See ever since the beginning of my journey I wanted my art to inspire others to NEVER GIVE UP. There's nothing more satisfying to me than posting an art piece and then someone comes to me with a piece they did saying "your X-post inspired me to do this". THAT is the kind of reaction I love creating. 
I also love creating OCs who actually do get the love and attention I myself can't fully give. I'll give an example. 
I love ALL my characters the same, and I love sharing their stories and their journey, struggles, etc etc. But when they fall to the bottom of the barrel just for fancier looking fish is quite rather disappointing also yes I'm fully aware humans like finished art pieces rather than flat colored half assed ones but it gets better. 
At this time I just probably sound like I'm whining but I am giving out my rawest thoughts to the fullest with no filters :  

It may also be according to what the crowd currently follows, maybe their interests are elsewhere and that changes on the weekly basis, it's nature, it's understandable. I guess the fact that half of dA vanishing doesn't help in that matter now does it? xD
Here's another thing I would love to add. 
I recently posted M'ila on Instagram and she got SO MUCH BLOODY ATTENTION it's insane 
That fight she had with Vader? Well I got hard-core Star Wars fanboys admiring her (Shocking? Quite). 
I also posted her son who got just over 1.3k likes (with a couple of funny comments) but the bottom line to this is, I love feeling that my art is appreciated. 

now that I'm re-reading this, it is all but a bloody MESS lmfao 

So the veeeeeeryyyyyyyyy bottom line is this. 
I know the worth of my art and I don't need anyone kissing ass. I'm here to motivate and be motivated and it feels like Instagram does that on the daily. On Instagram I do feel that my pieces get a chance to shine even for a second, that they don't get pushed down just for fancier diamonds. 

And that is all I guess  and know that while this bloody mess of a ramble might sound offensive, whiny, negative, whatever. I DO appreciate everyone here that has stuck around for so long, that takes some time off of their day to comment/fave. I haven't forgotten about y'all  and yes I do pop in silently. The silent lurker now I guess  

I'll still post my art here, I still got some HARPG references I gotta do, and Inktobers to post. All of that will come slowly. I also like to believe all of November and December kicked my ass down to where I'm just starting to get back up on my feet  

 HAPPY NEW YEAR!!  

Well almost for me LOL! At the time of posting this I still got 3hrs left before we hit the New Year here

I just wanted to say THANK YOU to every one of you for the support this year and the love! I know I'm terrible at replying to y'all and I do apologize for that immensely

I do have a bucket list of sorts planned for 2019 and I am quite excited to start this year with a fresh and positive mind! that kinda sounded like I got brainwashed lmao

For the past year of 2018 I actually did a couple of things I had at the top of my list and I am quite happy about it! for starters I signed up at my local gym and that has helped A LOT in letting some steam out! Quite calming for the mind if I do say so myself~

Now for the upcoming 2019 I do have a couple of things I want to do like I mentioned earlier

1. STORIES. I have a lot of ideas for both fandom stories and HARPG but this year was sadly hard for me to find time to do 10000 complete drawings oTL as you could see my latest drawings were just simple colored with a couple of lights slapped here and there and just a plain background not happy about but we can try for the new year!

2. INTERACTION. Secondly I want to interact more with y'all. Could be just by chatting on discord (still gotta download x'D) or our OCs interacting or just making cute little stories. Any and all of that! I truly wish to do all that fun stuff but my shyness has stopped me to a certain degree to do such a thing. Like the saying goes "New Year new me" right?

3. ACTIVITY. Well that explains itself yeah I want to keep consistent on my posts oTL I tend to disappear for MONTHS then post a million things at once then POOF~~ now I'm not saying that I'll post every day or on X-days of the week, life does get in the way and I have experienced that first-hand but being consistent helps in no one forgetting who I am ye? And of course most importantly who my characters are xD


Those are 3 of many things I look forward to on 2019!!
Let's start the year with a positive and energetic mind!

See ya time!!

Hello there  


Yes I know it's been a long time since I've shown any form of being alive and kickin' but I'm still around

The journal ahead are just some of my thoughts on the occurring events I've been witnessing these past couple months~

Lately I've been seeing a lot of people dropping out of HARPG. Why? Many of you would ask. I know a lot of those who have been dropping out are highly known among the community so it brings about more than a handful of sad faces. But what I have seen is the atmosphere of toxicity the community seems to have looming above it.

Around 2013-2015 when I was going to college, the community was alive and blooming. Many events and activities were going on left and right. The major ones seemed to be the Olympics and Summer Events of Dressage and the like. You could enter the events, RP, meet new people, do trades, etc etc. It wasn't until real money (not just 500 for something) was being put into breeds that seemed to have dragged the entire community down to hell.

Greedy hands began to command a once beautiful society. The HARPG turned from a hobby you could enjoy after a long day, to a job. Of course if you didn't comply to the dictator's rules you would walk the plank. And yes I said dictator for the mere reason of how tight the reins are being held in the HARPG today.
It wasn't rare to see a pair of friends, or a group, who were once so close turn their backs and back-stab each other for a MADE UP BREED. This began to break everything apart. Who could you trust? Would it be worth it to join this seemingly interesting breed?
Not to mention if you did want to join a breed there were the BS rules of registering your character withing a certain time frame, and drawing them a certain amount of times in a year if not then you can kiss your character's butt bye-bye with no refund.
I know some, on extremely rare occasions, leave up to a year for you to draw a reference image and upload it. This seems for reasonable due to most of players having already grown up (uuuhh for some that still don't act like children. And for the younglings that are mature I thank you) and had gotten life to take care of.
I know this myself for I had to drop out of college to get a full-time job to take care of a thing or two in life. I still love the HARPG and I still contribute to it even if it's just once in a blue moon. Like many others I hate having my gallery in nothing but chibi flat-colored images that show nothing of what I am capable of doing with my characters. (that's why there's instagram for sketches~ :'D)

But going back to the downfall of things, it wasn't until big amounts of money were shown that everything broke apart.
So what's the point in continuing something wonderful when everything is murky? What's the point of passing your brand new carriage and your fine horse through murky waters and a dark forest?

We as artist find inspiration in seeing art from others especially those we look up to. But having this toxic community is like trying to find a sky full of stars in a smog filled place.

Taking a break is perfectly understandable. Many seek a different subject to draw that isn't always horses, horses, and more horses. That is perfectly okay, my life drawing professor always said it's good to take a break and come back to it later with fresh eyes.

The main thing we as a community have to put through our heads is that this is a GAME. A HOBBY. You are not being paid for putting up 10 drawings a week (unless of course you're commissioned but that's another story). We're here to inspire and find inspiration.


TL;DR
Look back to the roots of what once was a beautiful community and made it as such. Was it worth it to break long term friendships for the money? Was it worth it to break trusts for the glory? Why are we all here in the first place?
What made HARPG so enjoyable back then? Don't just quit something you love to do. This is Horse Art Role Playing Game. (so play it at your own pace)
This is not
Horse Art Stressing Your Balls Job. (no one is your boss other than you)



I'm not good at words let's just hope all that gibberish made sense  



A small note before going~
I know I have been slow on things involving art, I do plan on going back to college in August so hopefully things kick back up to normal scheduling
I do however always post sketches up on my instagram @ Katchihe (like I've always said it's easier to carry a sketchbook than to carry a computer